...and I'll always be. I'm never finished, never satisfied, never done. I feel like if I stop moving, doing, wanting, I'll drop where I stand and no one will ever know I was here.
This is what motivates my words, my work, my actions.
I want you to know I was here. I want to linger in your memories, even 20 years from now... I want you to hear the words "Hey y'all!" and think, "OMG, I remember this chick from NYC used to say that mess all the damn time!"
-SIDE NOTE-
Did you listen to my show last night? Darius Williams of Everyday Cookin' [dot] com and I did a Cooking 101 segment, and you really should have tuned in! It was crazy fun and we had some really informative and helpful tips for all you non-cooks out there. You can download the podcast by clicking here.
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In light of this new declaration, this newly adopted affirmation and acceptance of my non-perfectness, I hereby proclaim: I will no longer use my TO DO list as an excuse to keep "love" and "companionship" at arms length. No more waiting until my finances are straight or my stories are published or my babies are out of the house.
Not that I'm going to stop doing what I have to do to get where I want to be, just, you know, I might maybe maybe maybe tuck away the *Side Eye* from time to time and maybe maybe maybe *GASP* smile sometimes. I know, scary, right? I'm not even sure I know how to smile without alcohol in my system!
But every year I try to make one or two improvements in my life; last year I stopped obsessing over celebrity gossip and gave up cow's milk; this year I think I'll actually (maybe maybe maybe) open myself up to the possibility of (maybe maybe maybe)... romance n shit.
I'm going to still be me, a less stank version of me, but me nonetheless: the snarky, silly, crazy, ambitious, messy, curly-haired, Spicy Latina you all "know" and love.
Dude(s) will just have to deal with a Jaded NYer who's always on the move, peeking over the neighbor's fence, dreaming of the great beyond and planning for every possible life imaginable. Just a little less stank.
He'll have to deal with that and love me anyway. Because I said so, dammit.
And I, in turn, will (kinda maybe perhaps) accept that he, too, is not all he wants to be, yet, but is doing all he can to get there.
There I said it. But I'm warning you- if I read comments from you talking bout, "Jaded's gone SOFT in '09, y'all!" I'm coming for you.
SHUT. UP.
*smooches...with no one in particular in mind*
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and even if there were someone, you know I'd never tell *wink*
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11 comments:
Sheeeeettt, I been said you need some d$%^k!
whatever happened to the white dude ?
@clnmike- OMG, you did not just write that... GRRR! *SIDE EYE*
@brother omi- you just HAVE TO keep mentioning the white dude, eh? You'll have to take that up with Lani and Mari; they were supposed to hook that up, not I! lol
Yup - we had a blast. I'm about to download and listen to how crazy i sound right now!
awwww... Jaded's gone.....ok I won't go there
who doesn't love your "snarky, silly, crazy, ambitious, messy, curly-haired, Spicy Latina" ass??
should be a crime somewhere not to love you..lol
Jaded's gone soft in '09...lol
lmao @ clnmike!
that first comment made me spit out my tea.
the show last night was good. especially the chat room.
lol @ clnmike
I enjoyed the show also. SHALLOT!! But..you mention peeking over the neighbor's fence...do you mean like that dude from Home Improvement? Are you going to peek over the fence and dispense with sage advice to help another family deal with the rigmarole of everyday life? Are you gonna be like Tisha Campbell in Boomerang? Or are you just trying to get at a n*gga's sh*t when he aint home? Maybe? Maybemaybemaybe? ;-p
1) *hugs clnmike* that shit was priceless. LMAO
2) You said the L word in your email about this post and I *totally* thought you meant lesbian. How disappointing. But then clnmike's comment made it all better.
3) I might have a bone to pick with Darius. Yesterday, he didn't mention you in his email promoting his cooking show and he gets on here today and comments on your blog ... about downloading the fucking show to hear HIMself! He's lucky you've gone soft in '09, maaan. LUCKY
@darius- fun time indeed; next time you have to get hip to the chatroom earlier during the call!
@a.j. brown- aww, thanks, hon!!
@eb- I just KNEW someone was gonna act a fool! and don't give mike no credit!! lol
@dipsetjam- that was NOT funny!!
but thanks for tuning in last night LOL
@and1grad- you know what, all of you can just GO SOMEWHERE!! Next time I'm just gonna CLOSE COMMENTS!! GRRR!
@jack- et tu, Brute? *sigh*
and LMAO @you picking a fight with Darius... it makes up for you co-signing with wack-ass mike! HA!
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